ugh.

i despise people sometimes, one negative comment could ruin a whole day. i can’t believe i let people get to me like this. i don’t know what to do anymore. music isn’t helping and the heaviness isn’t going away. it just took over in an instant, headaches and losing my appetite are in store for me. i can’t even think about sleep right now. i just wish everything could be normal. not exactly normal, that would be too mundane. but just a smidge of normal. i can’t take this again. i may not survive. well i will, but the hurt is just too much to bear. 

oh how i miss the winter..